by R.T. Notaro
39 Lashes
One
How did I get here?
Two
What is my role?
Three
What is the purpose?
Four
My flesh is weak!
Five
Why?
Six
My blood. MY blood!
Seven
how many more?!
eight
Mother.
NINE
MOTHER!
ten
do they see me?
eleven
do they FEEL my pain?
twelve
The twelve.
Thirteen
my flesh
Fourteen
my flesh is weak.
fifteen
Peter!
Sixteen
this is my choice.
seventeen
the Sound!
Eighteen
Am I?
Nineteen
Mary!
twenty
this is my choice?
twenty one
is this worth it?
twenty two
How many more?
Twenty three
Father!
Twenty four
What will be.
Twenty five
Am I forgotten?
Twenty six
what of my life?
twenty seven
when will this end?!
twenty eight
Was my message not clear?
Twenty nine
what of me?
thirty
LOVE.
thirty one
what of him?
thirty two
WHAT is my reward?
thirty three
my life.
thirty four
How do they not understand?
thirty five
did I not give enough?
Thirty six
forgive.
thirty seven
my flesh is weak.
thirty eight
It is.
thirty nine
I AM.
Absolution
I dream of angels
but live among demons.
The dark belongs only to find me;
and my soul lies helpless.
I dream of angels
but they don’t see me.
Yet my destiny is where
the demons inside destroy me.
I dream of demons,
but he who comes before my death
will make my blood his own;
and know that I dream of heaven.
First Blush
Troubled mornings,
questioning God’s dream.
While I toil by streams
spring fed.
Seeking without want.
Warmed only by Your voice inside.
Smell the earth beneath
and smile.
RT Notaro
Writer
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